Life is a maze, Love is a riddle

the guy

2012-02-15T23:34:00.004+08:00

I look like some small kid so excited in riding a arcade bike:)

Got pictures from Aisha. I curik her pics. hehe. sorry!

I won that bike game twice against that guy beside me. Haha. He's bad at it really! Nah. Just kidding. He lose because he uses manual while i uses auto. Hehe.

Anw, there's a reason why I'm coming out this topic. Haha. I'm not really sure if I should mentioned it here but I'm gonna do it anw.

I think I'm falling for you. I have no idea how. Its just the little things you do. Help!

You're nice and sweet though you have a lot of girls around you and that is always a bad sign to be with a guy with a lot of girls because for some reason, its just hard uh. I feel like making a move. Crazy I know. But knowing you, if you were to know that I have feelings for you, you will surely stay away from me. So I rather not. But I really really want to you know like talk to you everyday and all. Haishh

School is over! Now work. So not ready for my future. I'm really nervous and excited at the same time about it. Hehe.

okay i want popie! nitey nitez:))

sick and tired of everthing

2012-02-13T22:45:00.003+08:00

can you see what I wrote here? I mean its impossible. But somehow you're giving me the cold shoulder. Haiz.

What a life. But I love every second of it anws. The ups and downs of it.

You broke me. And left me. Sometimes it feels like you walk around the pieces that you have crushed just to make it seems more worse, more powdery if you get what i mean.

Why? Why the sudden cold shoulder from you? I always wonder what I did wrong with you guys sometimes. So freaking hard to read. I hate it! Gosh.

Tomorrow will be the last day of school. Remember our conversation about it? Meaning I'll be free to go home late without worrying that tmr i have to wake early to go school and all? Yeah.

One more thing, whoever that have their own vehicle right now is very action already with me I have no idea why. Like suddenly. Its freaking annoying. You know what? Yes what? I don't give a damn anymore!

Nighty nitez all:)

you, me and new you

2012-02-12T21:22:00.002+08:00

I miss them so freaking much!

and especially i miss the me in this picture. what happened to me? i changed. i don't like this me now. always so sad. heartbroken. and shattered. bad luck in guys. forever.

you obviously have found someone new now. well have a great fucking life! yes i am mad at you for no particular reason. even someone who doesn't know you hates you after what you did to me, after how you treated me. yet i stayed. but i'm leaving. i have to be stronger than i am now.

and you! you didn't reply my whatsapp. i am so sad. i shall not let myself fall for you any further. i can't. you me its just impossible. and you are just like him. many many many girls. but at least you're nice to all of them. and i shall not have a crush on you. i order myself not to! pretty please. if i let myself go on i will get hurt in the end. i just know it.

and me. why so stress out about all this. you know the more i am stress the worse this condition of mine is. and yes, it has worsen now. so i need to stop stressing! gosh. think happy thoughts shahrizan. pretty please. i love myself and won't let this condition get any worse then it already is.

so for now, good night:)

adventure

2012-02-09T23:51:00.004+08:00

I MISS YOU!

Forever will start my post with that. Haha.

So, I just got back from johor with him on a bike! Wah my first time go johor take bike. I very the excited and jakun and like fun! Haha. A bike with a box behind is less scary then a bike without a box. It was short though the trip but fun. A very great experience. And the speeding part makes me so nervous that my legs were literally shaking. The wind blowing was freaking cold but overall, AMAZING:) Thanks syan! :)

Anws, someone is inside camp and its so boring. And tomorrow please come. I'm really very scared already now. Haish. Please.

Okay shall sleep soon. Nighty nitez:)

stress:(

2012-02-07T20:38:00.002+08:00

i miss my long messy hair lah. haishh.
hehe

i miss you dear boy. you've change. from the first time i known you till now. everything is different. I don't like it.

there's something I wanna say here but this is even too big to mention online for the whole world to see so i can't.

what i can say is that i'm really scared and stress about it. Haish. please don't let it be true. please, i don't want to be stress anymore.

left 1 more week till last day of school baby! oh yeah.

in 7 more months i don't know what is going to happen but hopefully things will go as how i imagine it will be but it might not so lets just see what happens:)

goodnight for now.

lonely

2012-02-04T22:14:00.003+08:00

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

I miss you. Haish. Its so weird not knowing where you are, when you will be coming back. Its just so lonely and sad and lonely and sad and I'm so pathetic omgee.

You didn't even tell me that you're going in to Malaysia but you can meet up with her for awhile. Its really sad. And I can't help but worry. I should stop that like now. I should stop worrying. Haiz. I'm sleeping now. Nites.

jobs

2012-01-27T23:09:00.001+08:00

WAH! WANT TO FIND JOB VERY THE HARD!

I give up. Must fill it alot of things. Soon ah k job. Wait awhile Let me concentrate on my projects first:))

I MISS YOU!

Okay. so, going JB tmr. Scaredy scared:( Haish. Well, all the best with me.

He's out with his ex. Sad:'(

Shall sleep it off. Nighty Nitez!!

rashes:(

2012-01-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

i'm addicted to her songs! especially this one:))

You left me spinning like a disco
Trying but I don't know
If it can stand straight
You took me, left, when you knew I was right
And now I gotta fight just to make it through the day

I never knew what you were capable of
Baby, I would've kept my heart
But I gave it up
Baby, I fell in love
Now I don't know what it's done

[Chorus]
It's so cold with nobody to hold me
You're so wrong leaving when you told me
You would never leave me by myself
Out in the middle of nowhere
Now I'm lost
Trying to make it on my own
I thought I could never do this,
Alone but now I'm walking by myself
Out in the middle of nowhere

That was middle of nowhere by selena gomez and the scene. Awesome song!

Oh hi bloggie. I miss him. haishh.

Okay. Sat going johore. meet this makcik to see my rash. This rash that according to the doctor out of 10 people it only happen to one person. Guess i'm that one person. But i can't really complain or anything. Tis is what i've to deal with. Its my fate. Its sad though:(

Anw, not looking forward to meeting this makcik or go to any other doctor's appointment. I think I spent my parents money on this one quite a lot already. Haish. Poor them. I'm so sorry. I'll pay you back once I graduated and get a really good job. Hopefully. Will try my hardest.

Goodnight for now:)

randum

2012-01-25T22:09:00.003+08:00

self obsessed moment!

i miss you
imissyou
i miss you dear

that three i miss yous is for sun, mon and tues.

today, i miss you. gahhh.

started taking my car license. aim to pass it before i turn 21. oh hopefully. now i'm left with the prac and TP. hehe. easier said then done. wanted to take auto but my dad ask me to take manual. haish.

i dunno what else to say. so goodnight for now
:)

best guy friend ever

2012-01-21T00:28:00.002+08:00

I love my hair here! not my face. its ugly as usual. what's new?? haha.

So, yeah i still do miss you my dear.

And to you -my friend, bestfriend, close friend, some one i can never ever let myself to have feelings for- how come you knew me so well? its like i don't need to tell you stuffs and u can guess it on your own.

No wonder i trust you. i tell you things. my secrets and all. i trust you with all my heart but if you were to ever break that trust i can never tell you stuffs. i'll be the secretive me, the one that everyone knows. but you. you're different. you understand me.

Ahhh. OMG. you're both together over that. no wonder you ask me! goshh. this is why i hate when you guys are like bestfriends. haishhhh. and that call just now. he's there omg. okay. sleeping now.

nighty nitezzzzzzz!

life

2012-01-19T22:05:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna come here everyday to complain to you how much I miss him until I can move on. Everyday. Seems like its going to be awhile.

He's with this girl now. That 16 year old girl, who's just taking her o'level this year. Belum lagi keluar secondary school pn sey. Sebok je eh. Grrrrrr. Haish. Wth is wrong with me?!

Anw, had my napha test today. Tired as hell. I fail my sit and reach and 2.4km. Haha. What happen sey? And my BMI is like 18.1 For adults, i'm underweight. Harap je kurus tapi tak fit~! hahaa. oh well. i'm lazy ass. But I love aerobics and dancing and stuffs just jogging and all is not my thing! hehe.

School is ending in like less than a month. Oh how time flies. 3 years in poly has been a memorable experience! Working life will start soon. Nervous!

Anw, shall sleep now. Very very very very very tired. Nighty Nites.

~I miss you boy~

i will forever love you.

2012-01-18T21:11:00.002+08:00

I guess this time things really are over. For real.

Deep down I hope that things will get better. I hope that everything will be okay. But it isn't going to be okay. He left. For good this time.

I wish to have a third chance. I want it no matter how hurt I was. The things he did to me. I still hoped. But I.... Its over. There's nothing more I can do to fix it:'(

~i have to walk away~

third chances?

2012-01-17T23:32:00.004+08:00

It feels like I'm forever waiting for you.

You've got your second chance and I've got my second chance with you.

But it feels like I'm waiting for a third chance with you.

I don't know why, it just feels kinda empty without you.

Lonely. Very Lonely.

I shouldn't have prioritize you.

Should have not. Because look at how that turn out?

I got hurt, burned, broken, shattered.

Have I told you I miss you? Haish.

So, so much.

What the hell is wrong with me seriously?

I'm crazy to still be hanging to that hope that everything will go back to normal.

That I still have you by my side.

That I can still turn to you if I have a problem or need a listening ear.

But I can't anymore. Not now, not ever.

I wasn't good enough for you.

Oh boy, why'd you have to be so damn difficult to move on from.

Well, it took me 4 years to move on from MKBK, please don't tell me it's gonna take that long.

Oh what do I do?

~dilemma~

stuck in the past.

2012-01-14T22:31:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey. that feeling still exists.
that hurt that you feel in your heart and stomach. I thought I'm over it. Guess not.
You're spending much time with that 15 year old girl or should I say 16 this year.
She was your student. She was your camper.
Yeah I guess 4 years doesn't really make that much of a difference doesn't it?
Oh well, Shahrizan, wth are you thinking? or doing?
stuck in the past huh? haishh.

down memory lane

2012-01-12T22:54:00.008+08:00

I MISS YOU. I MISS US.

Omg. You have no idea how much I miss you. This used to be our screensaver. Yours in your laptop and mine in my lappy. Haha. Those time when everything was perfect. I was happy. Really. I don't know if I'm ever gonna find a guy that I will be very comfortable around with like how I am with you. You were my lover, my friend, my everything. I have slowly gotten over you but the sudden memories make me miss you a lot. Hope you're okay, happy. I really do miss you, didi zulhilmi.

Carrefour dinner and dance last 2 years. 2010. One of the memorable day that I was happy and excited about everything. The day when you were still mine. I still remember a week before this we were fighting, and 3 days before d&d you asked me to go together. But little did I know one of the girls in this picture was someone that you''ve been contacting all along. Hurt and heart-broken. And on 24 December of that year at 1'oclock you broke up with me to be with her. A week before that date I thought everything was going to be okay. We met up with each other everyday, smiling. We didn't fought everday anymore. But in the end, it still ended. I was naive and stupid to believe that everything was gonna be okay. Well, that's in the past now.

memories:'(

I was beside you when I took this. Using your laptop. You were talking to her on the phone. Fighting actually about something. I remember feeling bored and needing a new profile picture for my facebook. Haha. So i took this. I miss you omg.

Down memory lane. I suddenly thought about him and since its been long since i updated this blog why not rite? I miss him lah. haishhhhh. klah, must sleep now. bubye!

2011-12-28T00:57:00.001+08:00

Don't you get jealous seeing couples in a long term relationship??

Yeah well, i do:((((

I'm so jealous of them that has been together for 4 years or more.

I want that kinda relationship with someone.

Its so nice to have that;(

2011-12-15T22:57:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU, BUT I'M LETTING GO.

haish.

2011-12-13T19:58:00.001+08:00

So I wrote a composition.....

Hey. First thing first i don't know if you're even gonna read this but i have to say it anw. We have not talk to each other for so long. remember you said we'll always talk to each other and that we'll always be friends because i can never not talk to u? Anws,

Seeing you hugging iqah hurts more than i realized. Stupid right? I know. That's me. She must be someone really important to u. But if i managed to get through when u were with sarah, i know i will get through this. The thing that hurt the most was that u said u left not because of another girl. But maybe that was the reason why u left so that u can do whatever u want without me always being there. Lie or deny all u want bt some how i can see it. You may say that's not the reason, like the first time but u finally admitted that, that was the reason. And right now that kinda seems like the reason because right after you went out with her that day, you suddenly stop speaking to me.

When u started txting me back early this year u promised u wont leave, you promised this wont ever happen again, you promised to always be thr. You said you still have feelings for me. you said you regretted your decision, that u won't leave. you said you won't. Guess all of that is gone now huh? The empty promises you made to me. I love you so much that i was too blinded to even see that u actually have no feelings for me. You promised.

I like you more den i ever like a guy before therefore no matter wat happen i never ever talk bad about u to anyone or even to myself. I cam never bring myself to hate u. But I can't have or know the feeling of someone hating me especially someone i cared. That is why I have to do this. I can't just walk away and leave things hanging. I just can't. I really thought i make you happy guess i was wrong.

I tried to be ur fren, i tried to make things right. Guess u're the one who doesnt want that anymore. I tried talking to u, asking you whether u wanna watch movie bt all u did was ignore me, do u know how much that hurt? Well ofcourse u don't bt even if u do, well it doesn't matter anymore does it?

Maybe you do know the feeling. Remember kartika? yeah. Right now this is how i felt like how you felt about her. sucks doesn't it?

I dunno what i ever did wrong. Okay. Maybe the harsh words i said or sometimes my bad attitude and i know you have been patient with everything that i did bt i never cheated on u. Ever. Well that thing hurts more than anything. You cheated on me once and i still let u back in my life bt what do i get? You left me. There. Now. Lonelier than ever. One day you decided to just leave me alone. Asking me to move on. find new people. live life. what if i'm already happy living life with you even though we are not in a relationship, just having u in my life was nice. but u decided that it wasn't for you and i can't really force you to be my friend now can i? ofcourse not.

And, i don't know if you're going to reply or ignore which you do best, but one thing i know is that i am really sorry for everything bad, harsh or things i said or ever did to you. I am sorry for all of that. This almost 2 years have been amazing despite the ending. I was happy with you even after everything that happens. Like you said nobody's perfect. Everyone makes mistakes. But I was happy. Now that's left are the memories.

Yeah. I can see that you are now leading a good life so i guess thats good. Atleast one of us is happy. And yeah i'm happy for you. Though it still hurts there is nothing i can do anymore. I'm always here though. and you're probably gonna ignore this anw right?

Goodbye. Have a good life and take care.

new begginnings

2011-12-10T20:01:00.003+08:00

hello.

everyday i cry myself to sleep. literally, cry like a baby and feel tired and sleepy after that. haha. i wonder why am i torturing myself like this? why am i being this way?

every time, i saw him or her on facebook, it just hurts inside. him hugging her. and he dare says he left not because of another girl. it is obvious that he wants to spent time with her. Haish. why did i meet such a guy? why did i fell in love with a guy who plays around with other girls, who plays around with my feelings, who just isn't committed to one girl.

every time, i'm sad i will always think to that day when it all happen. what if i had went with syarfa and all to celebrate countdown, what if i had gone home with jimmie instead of him, what if i had just went home by myself. I don't think any of this will happen. I don't think i'll ever fell in love and got hurt. Bad.

But, if i didn't met him i will never have met his lovely friends who are all so friendly and nice with me. I will never have a new guy bestfriend, i will never meet new people like all of his family who are all so sweet and caring towards me. I will never meet his cousins, and other people who are all so very nice. I feel lucky at the same time for having met all this lovely people for the past 2 years.

I don't know if i can ever move on. Deep down I don't really want to, to be honest, but I know deep down that i have to. Because if I don't i will keep hurting myself. I'm stronger than i seem, more independent than ever now. yeah it may seems very lonely, but i'll survive. i always do.

i just have to pull myself together and be strong and move forward. for my happiness sake i have to do it and i will. i promise i will:)

2011-12-06T22:39:00.001+08:00

hey. i dunno what to do. i can't really share with anyone else. i dunno why bt its just hard for me. i dunno wat to do. it hurts so much. i fell in love with a guy who doesn't love me:'(

OVER

2011-11-30T21:44:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey.

ITS OVER. like seriously this time.

nobody knows this but its harder to walk away this time as his family and mine are literally planning vacations together to go langkawi. I don't know what's going to happen when both our families find out. haha. seriously. my dad approves of him and my dad likes his father. but, i guess its not fate.

this time it feels more sad than the last time though. everything came crashing down. But right now, what's important is my future. I'm graduating next year april (hopefully). hehe. I am very excited about that though. So, relationships aside. Maybe the next guy I met can be my future husband? Chey. Haha.

But I want a long term relationship though. Its nice to settle down. I think I had enough fun during secondary school years already. Him? I thought we can get through any obstacles. Guess I was wrong. But I really do miss him though. A lot. Like the temptation to just text him is a whole lot! But I have to resist it though.

The thing that is sad is that his whole family is nice to me. I mean, I met all his aunt, uncles, cousins and like all of them like me. I think its kinda hard to get that kind of love from people you barely know. Well, with him its gonna be 2 years now that's why I'm like so comfortable around his family. I wish things don't have to change though but, sad I know. Keep thinking about it every single day.

I guess its for the best. I'm strong enough to move forward and forget the past. I know I am. Well its normal for tears to shed, but I dunno. Any regrets? Not really. Let's just go with the flow. But 1 thing i want is that for him to realize that he chose to let go a great girl. Not trying to be arrogant or anything but I'd literally do anything for someone I really like. But its his loss right? mine too.

Okay enough about 1 guy. haha. My life doesn't revolves around him anymore. I'm officially a free girl now. But I'm not looking for any relationship anytime soon. I just need to get back on my feet first. Concentrate on school and work. I really want to be a career woman. hehe. A dream thingy. hopefully:))

Okay goodbye for now!~

Pompan yang gile

2011-11-17T17:10:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Okay straight to the point. I don't understand what the hell you want from me? I mean seriously. Just leave me alone. Are you jealous that I'm still talking to him? Seriously? I don't think so right because you are so proud that you're are in a relationship with your ex-boyfriend. Sape yang ludah and jilat balik ni skrg huh?

So what if he's using me? Its my choice. I don't like it, I don't encourage it and I don't expect anything from him. I'm happy and that's all that matters. It might sound selfish but that's life. If you're happy then everything's good even though nothing is right. Why do you have to just be a joy crusher? I seriously don't understand a girl like you.

Bye!

I hate.

2011-09-19T23:19:00.001+08:00

I hate being in love.
I hate crying until you can't breathe. Its so hard to breathe:(
And then you'll start coughing and feeling sick.
And then you'll have a blocked nose.
I hate that feeling.

I hate you.

miss you

2011-09-12T02:53:00.004+08:00

Hi I miss blogging. Haha. Maybe shall update once in awhile.

I realize something though. This is really a place to vent out feelings. Lets say if you had a bad day or something, writing it down, all your feelings and pent up anger is really a good way to release everything. Heh.

Anw, what's new?

This is my third year in poly already. Time flies I know. Hehe. I'm having holidays, when school reopens it will be my last semester in Temasek Poly. I'm gonna miss the school of especially the people there. Haha. My grades are not awesome but its average, guess that's acceptable. =)) MP project sucks though, so does the so call internship. Hate it. And kinda glad that its over! Haha. School's a bitch but I'm loving every moment of it(:

Ooh, the last time I went here was in like June. And now like September. 3 mnths of happiness huh? Hehe. Turning 20. So not excited as I realize that I am no longer a teenager. Damn.

Life. There's not much difference. He is still in my life. I know, I know after what he did to me? He should be banned from my life huh? Guess I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I dunno. I'm hoping for a change in my life maybe. I still love him, I do a lot actually, but he doesn't seem to feel the same way about me, so why bother. I've tried, really hard to make things right, I really do, but he's still the same, so why not try and find something new, a hobby or something to get my mind of him.

He's going jakarta for 2 weeks, hopefully, that time I can actually forget about him a little. People say absence makes the heart grows fonder, but for me, out of sight, out of mind :)

I'm pouring my heart out at 3 am in because I cannot sleep and its the school holidays anyways. Haha. I'm actually webcam-ing with him right this moment. Okay wait, he's gone! Haha. And he's back, seeing him, looking at him, I realize that I don't trust him. At all. Now that's bad. But I really can't help it. He lost that trust, the minute he start lying straight to my face!

Oh gosh, I shall stop. I can write a composition about him. Seriously.

Okay bubye! Have a good night strangers. :)

2011-06-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

hey bloggie.

i need you. badly:'(

i am so sad rite now i cant stop crying bt u're gonna make everything go away rite? please make everything go away. please:(

(:

2011-05-30T21:08:00.002+08:00

Happy. This sudden feeling that makes me just want to smile. Things are great so far, amazing, in fact they are perfect. I'm loving every moment of it. EVERY MOMENT. He really is different. I don't know why but he is and I can't be more happy.

But I know deep deep deeeeep down, I'm still afraid that things will change. Because usually when you're too happy, things usually take a spin and everything goes spiral. Please stay this perfect awhile longer, or forever or as far as it goes. What I know is I'm taking each step by step slowly. Hehe. <3 Him.

:'(

2011-05-26T00:19:00.002+08:00

okay right now i need my blog. help me.

I seriously dunno what to do. I don't. He actually cry:( like literally with tears flowing i think. If cry smp tersedu obviously btol kan. haiz.

If i actually have the courage to say this infront of you SITI SARAH i will definitely say.

HEY BITCH! THIS POST IS REALLY FOR YOU. I WANT YOU TO ACTUALLY FEEL IT(TERASE). YOUR WORDS ARE HURTFUL! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP IT? klau marah pn tk perlu pakai perkataan yang kasar! and this is harsh but you have to know. i'm sorry.

SERIOUSLY NO MATTER HOW SOMEONE HURT YOU, YOU REALLY DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO BRING SOMEONE DOWN WITH YOUR HARSH WORDS. YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT WORDS ARE MORE GOD DAMN HURTFUL THAN IT SEEMS.

no matter how you hate that someone you can just vent your anger but you dun have to be so freaking harsh. everyone have feelings so please don't only think about yourself. find something that can actually help you release all unwanted baggage. this time you're really a bitch. like seriously.

I'm sorry this is harsh I know but atleast I don't use unnecassary words.

Okay last. KAU TU, BEBUAL PASAL ALLAH KAT FACEBOOK. PASAL BALASAN SUME. AKU FAHAM. TAPI KAU TAU TAK SATU KALI KAU MAKI ITU ADALAH DOSA JUGAK? AKU TAU AKU BUKAN MANE NYE PANDAI SANGAT DALAM AGAMA INI TETAPI AKU TAK PERNAH MAKI DENGAN SENGAJE NYE DAH TAK AKAN MAKI DENGAN SESUKA HATI DI ORANG YANG AKU BENCI.

So please. Stop hurting ppl. If you hate him so much, leave. Dun hang ard anymore. If you dun want to leave den why not try to forgive and forget.

:'(

2011-05-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

I'm like letting myself fall for you again. I know I shouldn't do that. But I can't help it. Like really. I don't know what else to do. Haiz.

Random

2011-04-28T00:31:00.003+08:00

Hi there. Long time no see. Hehe.

Anw, life's been pretty good actually. I guess that is why I didn't update you. The reason I update you is to vent my anger. Since I have no anger inside me for the time being I shall update random stuffs.(:

He broke with her. Like finally. And after so long he is really nice to me. Its like how it used to be when we were together in the beginning. And the suprising thing is that he is only contacting me and no other girl. How I wish it could be like this before. He is even more open with me. He showed me every text sent by that desperate bitch who called me desperate when she is the one that is acting like this now. Begging him to come back to her. Sending all the long text asking him to return to her. He actually asked me to read the text. Suprising huh? Last time want to touch his phone also like freaking difficult. Now? He doesn't even care about his phone.

I dunno but seeing him like this makes me somewhat happy. That is why I guess life is pretty good. Oh well, this happy thingy won't last long I'm sure. Unless he really has change which I doubt so. In the mean time before I get hurt again I'm gonna enjoy every moment. (:

I fall for you time and time again. No matter how much you hurt me with your words in the past I still have feelings for you. Your recent confessions to me was amazing. Thank you for still feeling the same way about me. Please stay in my life awhile longer. I Love You.

changes

2011-03-01T22:53:00.001+08:00

This few days you have been like talking to me everyday, texting me the whole day. I thought things are going to be okay, I thought they were going to be better. But I thought wrong. Because right now I'm sitting here waiting for you when I know you will never ever come back to me. I am so stupid for even hoping or thinking things will get back to how it used to be. Stupid me. You don't love me at all:(

2011-02-02T19:48:00.003+08:00

You seems happier than ever. She makes you happy. I'm glad. Sorry I don't even give you happiness when I did try my hardest.

I tried saying goodbye everyday but it seems so hard. It will get easier. Hopefully. Last long. This time I really mean it.

I will always love you even if it hurts seeing the both of you together. Even if it hurts hearing about you and her. This is goodbye for good.

final goodbye

2011-01-22T11:47:00.002+08:00

I am so stupid right? Letting you hurt me. Why can't I just hate you, and move on with my life?

They are now in a relationship already. Omg right? How can someone moved on so fast? Oh wait I know how, its when that person never really does have any feelings for you that is why he doesn't feel any hurt for letting me go.

Right now, I seriously have to move on. I can't stay anymore and I will try my very best to not stay. oh, why is it so damn freaking difficult to let you go? I sometimes wish you would read this. I'm sorry for everything.

Goodbye.

2011-01-12T22:13:00.003+08:00

It feels so different without him. After the break up, all the secrets poured out. He did cheat on me, behind my back. He did went out with his ex and do the stuffs he is not supposed to do. All the suspicions I had all along was true. Everything was true. I don't know what to do.

After hearing all that I still couldn't hate him. I still couldn't be angry at him. I still want to be with him. I already forgive him after all the things that he had done to me. Oh why is this happening?

But the most painful thing out of all this was that I never was his girlfriend to begin with. All these times I was living a lie. I was in my own world thinking that he was my boyfriend when he cleared the air a few days ago saying that I was never his girlfriend. That seriously hit me so hard that for once I feel like a complete idiot. A complete fool. I made a complete fool out of myself. All the things that I thought were real was actually just my imagination. I am stupid for believing every word you ever said to me! STUPID. Ohhh. fml.

Break ups.

2011-01-05T18:27:00.003+08:00

Its over. Me and him. It really is over. This is what I want all along, for him to break up with me, but why the hell does it hurt so much?!

It happened out of the sudden. He texted me saying that we should take a break from all this. It really is over. Right now I don't really know what to feel. He seems okay with it. Not sad at all. I guess he doesn't love me anymore or at all, since it doesn't seem to affect him one bit.

He may say that a girl is not involved in this but I damn well know a girl is involved in this. That bitch whom I thought was my friend! I don't know how she could do this to me! OMG! Its as if arrrrghhhhhh. I am freaking pissed of at her right now lah. She is an idiotic bitch whom I feel like killing and stabbing every time I see her at work! Well I understand that its not entirely her fault. Yes I do. Its his fault too for texting that bitch everyday but still if she is my friend, she could just ignore all his texts right?

WHY THE HELL DOES SHE HAVE TO ENTERTAIN HIM HUH?! OMG! I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE GIVING HER A ONE TIGHT SLAP RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HER FACE! ARGH! I"m A BLOODY FOOOOOOL!

I know I shuould move on. But I can't. Not now. Its so hard. It hurts so bad. I feel like crying all day. Moping around. I don't even have the mood to do anything. I scuks! I hate myself for being so bloody depressed! ARGHH.

I should have not let myself fall for you this much. Its all my fault.

irrits freak!

2010-12-23T02:12:00.002+08:00

I laugh it off
But honestly,
It kind of scucks.
And I'm getting
So tired of it.

One down, one more to go. (L) is now out of his life. Thank god. Now its (S). Great! Just great. And so, I ask him whether does he like (S)? And his answer is so easy, maybe. Wtf! I know. Arghhh he drives me insane. Headache, heartache, everywhere aching!

And girl, three words for you. GO TO HELL!

2010-12-12T21:47:00.001+08:00

I'm terrified; HELP.

Goodbye

2010-12-10T12:19:00.003+08:00

Tell me what I should do please.

First thing first, em had an accident:( No wonder he doesn't text me. Omg. Motorbikes are so dangerous! At such a young age got scar on your leg already. Tsk. Guys beware. Ride motor please ride it safely. Thank you. But luckily he only got 5 stitches and no broken legs or anything else. Phew.

Second thing, I can feel it, that somebody's avoiding me. I don't why and what I did, but I can feel you distancing yourself from me. Please tell me why.

Last but not least, it always comes back to you doesn't it? Haiz.

I don't know how to be less of a lover to you. I know how to be your friend and how to be your girlfriend. But I don't know how to be in between. When I ask you, what you want from me, your answer is so easy, being there for you, but less of a lover. How selfish can you be huh? You expect me to be there for you, but but but its not fair.

I hate you right now. I really do. I'm letting you go. I really am. From now on, I won't find you if there's anything wrong anymore. I wont. Goodbye.

I hate work!

2010-12-07T22:03:00.002+08:00

Peace(:

Everything's a mess right now. It really is.

I don't even know what to do right now. Eh pathetic sia every time talk about this! Argh.

School have been really good to me at this point of time. Friends there never fail to make me smile and I am really glad for that. Because right now I think all I need is as much laughter as possible in my life.

Work SUX! Like really. Customers are getting irritating by the day. Stupid irritating customers! I want you to imagine if your daughters or son is working part-time earning money, and other people shout at your children, how do you feel huh?? Have a heart please. You stupid idiotic bithches can't just go around shouting at other people just because you wait for 15 freaking minutes in line to pay for your groceries. Seriously I had enough of all this complains and people shouting at my face. I seriously have enough of all that!

And you! You told me you treat me as more like a close friend then a girlfriend. How do you think a girl would feel if you tell her that huh? Stupid right? Please have a heart. I hate this feeling. I just want to be my old self back where I don't have to worry about things like this!

Haiz. What a life.

The End;

2010-12-04T23:28:00.003+08:00

I think he's breaking up with me soon. Sooner than I think it might happened.

I'm prepared, physically I guess, but mentally, I am so not prepared. Not yet please. I'm scared. Really scared.

I mean I'm used to casual flings before I met you. But right now ever since I met you, I want more then a fling. I want a real relationship. We are 11 months now, going to 1 year in like exactly 4 weeks.

Wah, my longest relationship ever and I think I fell a little too deep then I meant to. Deep down, I was hoping that things will get better, but after awhile, I realized that, by thinking that way, I'm fooling myself. This is reality and what I want don't usually come true.

I guess I'm prepared for whatever worse thing that's going to come. I am. I love you. A lot.

I used to believe in fairytales, but I guess it only happens in books and movies. Not real life.

irrits freak!

2010-11-28T18:01:00.003+08:00

GREAT! NOW THAT YOU HAVE YOUR OWN LAPTOP, ITS FREAKING MORE WORSE AHH.

At msn, i online you don't want online. What? Scared of me is it?? Huh! Crazy. Then I offline baru nk online. Bodoh ah. SUKE HATI KAU AHH APE KAU NK UAT! AKU GIVE UP!

Anw, sarah talk to me just now about afiq and how her relationship ended and he have the cheek to look at me and smile! Wth. Its as if he has not done anything wrong. Going clubbing is a different thing eh. Its way better then cheating uh. Please. Realise it. See it! Hello? Are you like blind! Fuck you!

Okay. It feels so great to let it out. i feel much better now. Thank you blogger. Me love you(:

hurting;

2010-11-26T20:27:00.001+08:00

It still hurts.
When is this pain going to go away.
PAIN! Please go away. I beg you. Pretty pretty please.
Go away and never come back.

:(

2010-11-24T21:07:00.002+08:00

Going out with another girl taking photos with her in your arm doesn't hurt me enough is it? That you have to go around flirting with your ex, calling her my dear and saying how pretty she is and still thinking about her every waking moment of your life? If that is not hurtful enough to you, why don't you just take the sharpest knife you can find and stab me until I bleed to death huh? I think that will be less painful than what you did.

I've make my decision. I will slowly let you go. Hopefully, I will be able to do it. I can't stand the hurt and tears anymore. You're not worth it.

you hurt me;

2010-11-19T22:39:00.002+08:00

I was not aware that he came only to love me for awhile.
I was aiming to be with him forever, but he was not willing to work it out.

While I was busy planning for us,
he was busy planning his life with another person.

It hurts so much, but all I can do is watch him walk away...
.... and that's the end of it.

There goes my forever, there goes my life.
I know he's gone, but holding onto him has become my way to stay alive.

updates.

2010-11-12T20:05:00.005+08:00

This is me. Haha. DUH rite?

Hi everyone! My posts have been emo shit so far! And one person is the cause of it all. What else is new? You tell me.

Blogging is actually fun! Hehe. I miss you baby. Haha. Erm, first thing first.

Family
This is the first raya that I actually shed real tears at my nenek's house, my father side. And the reason for that is that, my cousin who has always been there for me, who is always there, is not there at my grandmother house this year. She went and run away to belgium due to some problems. And it is almost one year that she has gone there. And I miss her a hell loads! I miss talking to her, seeing her face to face. I miss her smile, and laughter and her voice. Seriously, she's like my sister. I miss her a whole loads! But lucky we are still keeping in contact through email. At least something right? Oh god, noi, I hope you come back Singapore soon ok. Miss you(:

School.
New semester, same friends = AWESOME! My gpa as usual, it keeps dropping. OMG rite? Apelah nk jadi?? HAHA. But atleast its still above 2. So phew to that(: School have been a great help to distract me from things I don't feel like thinking about. Poly mates have been a great help. Laughter is seen everyday in class, and everywhere. I'm glad of that. Taking 6 modules this semester. A lot or what. But only two are examinable subjects, the rest are all projects. So thank god for that. At least something right? Heee. To conclude, I LOVE SCHOOL!(:

Work.
Still working at carrefour. No suprise there. Haha. Customers keep going up to me and my friends asking, is carrefour closing down? And wth. I'm sorry but I have no idea regarding that. I haven't even seen the news in the newspaper like they keep saying. Haha. Is it true? I don't know. There's a lot of rumors though. Maybe its true. Oh well, close down for all I care. Heeee. I won't really miss carrefour if it were to close down. But I will definitely miss the friends I have made there. All of them has an impact on me and I do not regret ever meeting them.(:

Him.
You will always be in any of my posts. Your name will occur in everywhere that I touch, my phone, books, notes everywhere. I'm sorry but I can't seem to let you go yet. And you want to know why? Because you are the first guy that I am comfortable to be around with, you are the first guy I'm not shy to talk to. I can be as loud around you, as I am with my secondary school friends and that is rare for me. I miss you so very much. I actually know that this day will eventually come. And I'm sort of prepared for it. And you want to know something else? You ask me to keep quiet about her rite? That girl name liyana from ite simei? Sure I can. But in my head, I'm killing her slowly, shredding her bit by bit, poking every part of her body with the sharpest knife I can find. Even though its not her fault as she does not know about me but I will still do it. Say bad word infront of her face if I ever have a chance to do that. She disgusts me, seriously.

I'm sorry for everything. Remember, you once told me that you're with me to get over your ex kartika? That already hurts so much. And now that I have help you get over your ex, you've decided moved on to another girl???? One question I have for you? Why? What did I do to deserve being cheated? And one more question, why the hell are you still keeping me. You still acknowledge me as your girlfriend. That is the one thing that kept me going actually but I'm not sure until when I can hold on. But everytime I think of you, I see you hugging that bitch. I don't know what else to do. I really don't. But one thing I know, I love you. Though you don't feel the same way as I do.

~Longest post ever~

hurting

2010-10-26T21:53:00.001+08:00

Am i stupid or what? I'm actually okay with my boyfriend dating another girl?

Seriously, I'm not okay with that. I hated that idea! I freaking hated that idea! Omg! I cannot believe that I didn't do anything. Stupid stupid stupid! ;(

This sux. Every time I think of this, everything in my life just goes crumbling down. I cannot put on my happy face anymore. Its too hard. I cannot pretend to smile and be really perky while inside I'm dying. Dramatic much?

What should I do? Please do tell.

I'm obsessing and that is really bad. I can't help myself. I keep on stalking her. She just pisses me off! Well, she obviously like him, and he obviously like her. Should I just let him go, so he can be happy with her? I don't really want to do that, let him go, and let him be with her. Its so unfair. For once, can't I just be selfish. I want to be selfish. Its not fair.

Sure there's a saying that says, if you like that person, you would want that person to be happy. I want him to be happy I really do. But at the same time, I'm giving up on you. I don't really want to do that. Well, the only appropriate thing to do is leave him, given what he did to me. But I just cant do that. I love him too much. Its horrible.

And if I were to ask him to choose either me or her, I already know the answer and obviously he will choose her right? I can't even bring that question up.

He told me he admit that he like her, but he also said to me that he know he still have me. What's that supposed to mean. Fuck you.

pain; memories

2010-10-19T21:45:00.002+08:00

I lie to myself everyday.
I tell myself that just hooking up with you is just for fun but the truth is that I hope that by doing so, you'll remember how great we were together.
I lie to myself by pretending that I don't mind that you're interested in other girls or that one day soon you might date someone again.

Truthfully, I'm terrified for that day to come.
I want you, and only you.

you hurt me;

2010-10-12T14:29:00.003+08:00

Everything is a mess now. I dun even know where to begin. One thing I'm sure, there is no such thing as a fairytale ending.

Everything looks sucky now. Food, sleep, everything. To find out that this past few months I've been living in a dream world where I can only see the good part of things. To be awaken from a dream that I thought was real.

Right now sitting at home doing absolutely nothing, I have all the time to think what actually happen. I have all the time to react now. And I wish I dun have all this time. I wish I'm always busy and preoccupied that I have no time to think.

Though I've been expecting this, I'm just not ready for the truth to be true.

He said that we were never a couple to begin with. If those words doesn't hurt I don't know what will. I seriously don't know what he wants from me. Really.

If he likes that girl so much, and she likes him too, why not just just ask her to be his girlfriend. Why keep holding on to me? Gosh.

I hate that girl. I hate him. I just hate everything! Its too damn complicated now do even do anything.

I'm bacccck.

2010-09-17T15:53:00.003+08:00

No one ever gets tired of loving,
but everyone gets tired of
waiting, assuming, hearing lies,
saying sorry and hurting.

I cannot believe that I'm doing this again. Writing. Its so addictive-ly fun! So I've been gone for months but I'm baccccck(;

Alot have happen and I meant ALOT. I don't even know where to begin. First thing first, I found someone whom I can share my deepest darkest secrets with. I'm glad of that(:

Never in my wildest dreams have I thought that I would meet a complete stranger and falls in love. He is the first that I'm comfortable to be around with. Its like I'm not at all shy around him and I've been wondering why. If its other guys, if they were to ask me out, I would usually come up with an excuse that I can't go or I would ask my girl friends to accompany me. But with him, I just have so much to talk about, so much to share with him, so much to laugh about. I am so not shy around him. And I have no idea why. It is really weird but somehow good.

The only thing is i don't know. Will I ever get tired of waiting?

Its great having you back blog. Aww, I LOVE You(:

2010-05-14T00:53:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE BLOG(:

RANDOM

2010-05-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION
TO STOP CARING WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT ME.

Jam n Hop

2010-04-29T23:09:00.003+08:00

There's always a truth behind
"JUST KIDDING",
a little emotion behind
"I DON'T CARE",
a little pain behind
"IT'S OKAY",
a little
"I NEED U"
behind
"LEAVE ME ALONE"

I wanna go jam n hop! Woohoo. 7th May.
Lets all partay ppl!(:
Have a great weekend everyone!

Soccer Match

2010-04-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

- Watch bf's soccer match just now.
- nee soon east vs tamp central.
- Didi's team won!
- Yayness. Hehe.
- Suprisingly the game was interesting.
- Winning team scored their first goal in less than a min when the whistle was blowed.
- Amazing right?! Tsk.

- Moving on..
- School was ok just now.
- Normal normal.
- Hehe.

Anws, tmr school morning again! Tiring or what. Tsk.
Nighty nitez lovely ppl(:

Bleed Profusely;

2010-04-27T21:56:00.002+08:00

Right now I feel like hitting

my head against the wall,

continously.

And be unconscious,

and hopefully by the time I wake up

all this bad dream will be over.

All my problems will fly away and never come back.

Can?

I Give Up

2010-04-27T19:56:00.003+08:00

Before anything, just wanna say that whatever is seen or read here stays here ok?

One sided relationship. Perfect):
I should have known that things are too good to be true.
I should have not let myself fall in too deep.
But its too late to regret now.
I chose this path and I will go through with it.

I've never felt so lonely before.

I should have known or seen this coming.
But I thought that things would be different this time.
But it still turn out the same.

I give up.
I give up trying to make things right.
I give up trying anything at all.

But one thing I'm very sure is that I will not let go yet.
I'll try to hold on for as long as I can,
until I reached that point where I'll just let go.

The only thing to do now is just let nature runs its course.
I will not try and interfere or make things right.
I'm really tired of trying.
I don't want to clap using one hand anymore.

I envy happy people.

I saw khairi just now btw(:
Okay real random. hehe.

School strts at 8 tmr.
So must sleep sleep sleep.

Have a great nite ppl=))

Forgive and forget

2010-04-24T22:05:00.002+08:00

I want the old me back.
The happy-happy me.
Can?

Been bad mood this past few weeks. No idea why.
Actually I know why, haha.
But.... Nevermind.
(;
Nighty nitez lovely ppl!

Sociology

2010-04-22T19:56:00.003+08:00

School was irritating just nw. Haha. Lesson strts at 9. Ends at 1030. My next class is like at 2. Stupid right. Wah I am so glad that my house is near! Hahaha. So after that my cds ends at 4 and I gt lecture at 6. Like seriously idiotic. Haha. What am I like supposed to do in that 2 hr?? Boo. But I went home uh and sleep and did not attend the lecture. Heh!(:

So had my sociology just now. Suprisingly it was interesting. Hehe. And the embarassing thing happen! I was lost in tp! Hahaha. Okay uh. My class is at business school and I've only been to the canteen in that school so I was like looking lost finding for the class. Like first year student like that. Whoever arranged my timetable is seriously crazy. Haha. Lucky darren was there, if not I think I'll like be going round in circles. Tsk. Embarassing moment over. Hehe.

Weekends are here! Woohoo. How time flies. Haha. So far all classes have been great. Will be taking 7 modules this term. Tsk banyak or what projects. Haha. Now haven't busy yet uh but maybe in two weeks time, my schdule will be hectic but I'm glad for the distraction though(:

Anws, have a great night ppl!

~Think positive!~

pissed off

2010-04-21T21:57:00.003+08:00

DAMN IT!

HE FUCKING PISSES ME OFF.

ARGHHHHHH. PLS RAIN.

='(

Angry; frustrated; infuriated

2010-04-20T23:06:00.003+08:00

I GIVE UP

From now on I'm going to play pretend since
thats one good thing that I'm actually good at. I'm sick and tired of being angry at people.
I'll just go with the flow and see what happens next.
In short, I'll say I give up and I'll stop caring.
Whatever is going to happen after this I dont give a damn anymore.

And another thing, the next time I hear someone says that my bf is sweet,
I swear I'll cut and chop that person into small little cubes
and throw the pieces into the sea. I swear I will do it!

Have a nice night(:

~I'm tired of waiting~

Schoooooooooooool

2010-04-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

Hello hello! Good evening! Hehe.

School was awesome! As usual due to awesome-ness people around. Heh!
I reached tp at 9 and found out that first lesson was cancel. Like wth! Haha.
Two hours free time. Like that might as well go school later right? Atleast can wake up late.
But but lucky there are things that we need to do. Like.......
Appeal for the cds that I didnt get into! Haha. So the five of us when to appeal and I fill up all the 9 choices given. Haha. Seriously tknk kalah.
We sent our forms like ard 10am and knw the results at like 4pm. Fast right? Goooood. Heh.
And nw, I'm officially studying about sociology and entreprenuership. Hehe(:

Okay enough about school. Anws, I miss our old lecturemates=( Especially, ....... Hahahaha.
I'm bored, I'm bored. Lalalala. Booo booo. Hehe!

I had my first huge fight with him ytd. Tsk tsk. And he like call me for like 52 times! And I didnt pick up. Bad sherry bad. Tsk. Haha. Sweet right?? Say sweeet! Hehehe. Booooooya~! Hahaha. Okay uh this is like random. And i'm like talking to myself and its like weird uhh. I feel like eating strawberry. Hmm yummy yummy.

Okay I seriously have to stop. Haha. Anws have a lovely night ppl!(:

~I need to believe that something extraordinary is possible~

Singapore Zoo

2010-04-16T15:40:00.002+08:00

So the most exciting part of this holiday was that i finally get to go to the zoo!(: Yay me.
Holidays will be over in two days time. Aww, how time flies. Mostly I spent my holidays working. Boooorrrring. Haha. Class bbq was fun some how different a bit. Classmates will still be the same this 'new year'. Haha. That's really goood. I loike! Cant wait for school to start. I will be once distracted again, better! I want to study. Haha.

So, I dunno what to talk about actt. Haha. Guess I'll end here. Have a great day ppl!(:

~Already gone~

Paint the picture

2010-04-05T14:12:00.003+08:00

I have this sudden want to paint. I miss art in secondary school. Though I'm actually bad at it but its like fun. With all the different colours to choose from. Well I prefer colouring to drawing uh. Hehehe.

So left 13 days of holiday. How time flies. I'm going to be a freaking yr 2 student in tp! Woohoo!(:
This week I have many many plans therefore I'm not going to work for the weekdays only. Hehe. Zooo, movie, picnic, pit? Some more? More more! Heheheh. The most exciting is zoo. Please please let the plan actt work. Cant wait!

I guess thats it. Haha. I cant wait for school to start suprisingly! Hehehe. Anws, have a great day ppl(:

~Happy-happy always~

Fridayy

2010-03-26T15:06:00.007+08:00

I hate 'drama mama'. I tend to run away from it but nw, I cant really do that. I am technically in the middle of it. But I will get through it.

~Start with Denial stage--- Welcome Anger--- Lets give a big long welcome to Sadness~

She's short with big boobs like betty boop bt an uglier version with a little bit of pimple in the cheeks. Keep reminding myself: He loves me, he loves me. Why must I be jealous? I wonder. Relationships. Urghhhh, troublesome.

Heyyyy lovely ppl! Weekends are coming. Funny incident ytd. Haha. My phone is now in service due to getting soak in a bowl of maggi ytd. Hahahaha. Lucky still gt warranty. If not die. I do love my cute, adorable, light, small purple fon(: And nw I'm down-graded to nokia without camera fon, Haha. Atleast still can msg n calling calling. Hehe.

I wanna go out! I wanna go out! I wanna go bukit timah, I have no idea whatever for but ppl say the place is nice. I wanna go! I wanna go! Haha. Bt no money=( Oooooh, to a certain person, if u're still mad at me. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry!

Am I spoiled? i dun tink so! haha.

Have a great day pppl!(:

~Parachute~

Stories I came across

2010-03-14T22:16:00.004+08:00

Story telling moment(:

This is really random anws.

I dream of romance, read about it and even see it with my own eyes. Well, on televison usually. But, I haven't really experience it for myself, yet. Haha.

Anw, imagine this story where you met a complete stranger in a bus. And he looks at you. Its as if he is smiling at you, but he uses his eyes and not his mouth (or lips). And all the way home you wishes that he will look at you again. But you give up finally because you think that it is not going to happen and you have already reached your destination. So, you alighted the bus and suprisingly he did the same just behind you. You sit at the bustop and he continues walking towards the estate area and at the same time you want to look at him, he is already looking at you and with a smile from afar. Awwwww, sweet rite? haha. Well, I think it's really sweet(:

So that is like the positive side of things. Some things that can only happen in a fairytale and not reality. Some things that are just too good to be true, things that will always have a happy ending, things that I look foward to in the future. Dream big cherry sherry boom boom(;

Every good side has their own bad side right? Haha.

Situation 1: A girl was angry at her boyfriend for going out with his ex-gf. The girl suspected it but don't really expected it to be true. So she asks him who did he go out with just now. As the guy was really nice, he keeps saying a friend not wanting to hurt his girlfriend. But the girl won't stop asking and asking and finally the guy gives in and tell the girl the truth and upon hearing it, the girl cried till she was fast asleep. So whose fault is it in this situation?? Go figure.

Situation 2: A guy was checking his facebook. A curious girlfriend went and sit beside him to see what the guy is doing only to find out that he was opening a message, a reply from his ex-gf. Well, in this case the guy was the one who sent his ex-gf a message on valentine's day. Not knowing at the monent who that girl was, she ask her boyfriend who that girl is. The guy's answer was short and simple: "I will tell you everything soon". Now, all the girlfriend could think about is what happened between the guy and his ex-gf. So again, whose fault is it??

Situation 3: A guy was on his way back from work at night, texted his girlfriend and tell her that he will be meeting a friend who is a girl and hang out for awhile. The girlfriend was pissed because she knew that the guy was tired and had to wake up early for work tomorrow. She let it pass because she thought that her boyfriend will be hanging out for about an hour or so. The next day she found out that the guy and his friend who is a girl hang out till the sun nearly rose. So that is like five to six hours tops. Lastly, whose fault is this??

Is the girlfriend over-reacting in all this situations? Is she like a crazy girl whom doesn't gives freedom to his boyfriend. Or is the guy taking advantage of the girl. Because the girl didn't really say no and tell him that she's pissed?

okayyyyy, this is like so random of me. I seriously have nothing to do and i'm bored! The situations above does not refer to anyone. It is just something I came across while I'm reading a book, or talking to my friends. So peace ppl! We are still young. So what we all need to do is enjoy life! Its no good stressing over these things.

Have a great night(:

Exam results

2010-03-12T21:42:00.003+08:00

Self obsessed much? (:

Hey hey! Exam results are out and it was okay. I'm not really proud with my results. Haha. But serves me right for not studying hard for it right?

People are supposed to improve but my gpa sort of dropped. Haha. Ah who cares its just by 0.11. Haha. The most important thing is that I passed though not with flying colour, but still passed and I do not have to take any supplementary papers. *Yay me!*(:

So, moving on. I'll be working tomorrow after it seems like months I have not work. Haha. After work tmr, I'm pretty sure that my whole body will ache. As excited as I am to work again tmr, the only downside to that is that I have do atrium. That is like soooo boring. And I hate IT fair! Psssssssst. BOOoooooo.

Some ppl say that a lie hurts more than the truth right? But in my case, I think a lie sounds wayy better. Sometimes I ask people questions and regret it straight after doing that. Because the answer given to me is one that I don't want to hear. Weird huh? And right now, I have been doing that lately and I hate myself for it. But I just cant help it! Ergghhhh.

Anw, have a lovely night ppl.

Starbucks

2010-03-03T23:25:00.009+08:00

Aww, I missed working at toy'r'us.
(:

So, went out just now. Seriously I don't think I can stay at home for more than a day without going out. Hahaha. So went starbucks again just now to slack. Went there drink caramel frap waste time with mu him. Haha. I love love wisma's starbucks. Its like always empty. Hehe.

Anws, the reason I'm blogging is to tell my blog that,
out of the many people living in Singapore,
out of the many places there is in Singapore,
its him I saw just now with his gf and its at bedok interchange that I saw him.
(: Happy? Yeah I am. Suprisingly. haha.

Okay done blogging. Nighty nitez lovely ppl!(:

~I missed green~

Great day out

2010-03-02T14:37:00.014+08:00

Before anything, its going to be one hell of a long post(:

So, it has been long. Exams are finally over. Now just stressing about the results which will be out next mon or tues I'm not that sure. What I know is, I'm freaking scared! Haha. See whose fault is it for not studying??? Mine ofcourse(: Anws, now that the holidays are finally here, I seriously don't know what to do with it. Haha. Want to work, but lazy so I guess the best way is just to sit at home, watch tv, blogging eat and sleep. Be one fat pig by the end of this month. Haha!

So the pictures above was taken ytd. Wake up early in the morning to follow a 'fren' go sata for his medical checkup at woodlands. Haha. Then had our lunch at kfc and I accompanied him to work. Argh work, so not fun. Haha. After that meet up with aisha and fir and both of them accompany go bugis to buy what I wanted. Haha. Ohhh sarah, I already buy the bag! Hehe. And right now all I wanted is the freaking jean jacket from mango=( Haha. Its so super duper nice uhhhh! hehe. Oh den after that meet up with syahid and friends at cine leisure, they were studying at kfc there. Awww, poor thing. Haha.

So we then decided to slack at marina starbucks, and since I have nothing to do, syahid's laptop became the victim. That explains all the pictures above. Awww, I love his webcam! Haha. Overall ytd was fun even the end of the day and even if I only slept for like 4 hrs since I have to wake up early in the morning. Hehe.

So how am i? Goood, real good. I'm happpyy. Haha.Work's good so far but the one thing I hate about it is that I have to do outside. Atrium. Front plaza. Ergh.. Haha. I've also involved myself in things beyond what I expected but I'm happy that I choose that decision. Okay this is a little complicating, only certain people understood this. Haha.

I want to go zooooooo with my sec sch frens! Girls? When will be the day? Since sentosa was cancelled lets all go to the zoo and met up with our old friends! Hahaha. Aww, I cant even remember the last time I went to the zoo. haiyo. And poly mates, karaoke? When when? Haha.
The holidays are like finally here so we MUST go out together ok? Haha. Lastly I want to go cyling tooo! With clare and shi hui and the others uhh at east coast! When when? Must plan. Okay talking to myself here. Haha. But its fun!(:

Okie dokie. Guess thats about it what I want to say and all. Haha. Alrighty have a great day people. And those who still have exams good luck to u all, n those who have already start their holidays: Lets go Party!(: Bubye.

~Jean jacket!!~

Exams

2010-02-22T10:59:00.002+08:00

Good luck to everyone having exams(:

So it has been long. haha. I've been busy with stuffs. And its the holidays already! Well, not exactly yet but soon. Now is just the period where I need to be studying for my exams! *Scared Scared*

Today is my maths paper. A 2 hr paper which many ppl commented that its a long paper. 2 hr is soooo not enuf for me. Haha. Anws good luck to me(:

So ppl ard me are probably studying right nw and here I am blogging. Haha. Well, this is a good way of relieving stress so no harm in doing it.

Okie dokie den. Will catch up some more soon. Toodles!(:

Dinner(:

2010-02-04T01:56:00.005+08:00

With them around, school is never boring.

Including the two other guys ofcourse.
(:

Projects, assignments, tests, quizzes are all almost done.
Left q-method only! Wooohooooo.
Now all I need to worry about is just the exams,
which will be like in three weeks time.
Scary or what.
With the exams coming,
it will mark my first year in TP.
Happy or what? Haha.

Btw cds are like finally OVER!
I'm so freaking happy you have no idea.
Haha. My last presentation was somewhat great.
The audience laugh, definitely a good sign
since that's what we expect from them.
Haha. And And
I manage to memorize all my script and speak Japanese fluently.
(:

Went out and have dinner with him just now.
Together with his friends and teacher.
Haha. Hilarious!
Seeing them, make me missed my secondary sch frens,
and teachers! Damn. Haha.

Ohhhh and btw, during lunch just nw in tp,
me and my frens loves to play aeroplane,
"suap" each other makan and all rite?? aha.
Same goes with his friends!
Haha. They also like to play the aeroplane and all.
Cute! Seriously. Haha. Omg! I had fun overall.

And one last thing,
I got no more school on thurs!
Mon and wed last few lessons all finish already.
So next week is slack day! Woohoo.
Haha. AND,
I want go ben&jerry ice cream at cathay tmr!
Anyone? I want go spy on ppl! Urgh.
haha. LASTLY,
I want sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Nigthy nitez lovely ppl!(:

~Louboutins~

First mnth

2010-02-02T01:00:00.003+08:00

Okay today was fun. Or I should say on monday which is yesterday? Haha.
I seriously have not laugh that much this past few weeks.
I love this bunch of ppl above to bits!
Instead of doing our econs project or going to the lecture,
we spent our time outside Lt and webcam-whoring. Haha.
While playling "chop chilli chop chilli chiili chop" or sumthing.
It is hilarious! Especially khai's actions. Haha. FUNNY.

And I'm supposed to like study for my qmethod test tmr,
maths quiz on wed and econs presentation tmr, role play script for jap on wed
but here I am blogging. Haha.
Oh anw, my weekends are some how okay. Not that interesting nor boring.
Okay talking nonsense. I am freaking sleepy!

OOHHH and 1 mnth had past(: Okay random!
Nigty nitez lovely ppl!

~part time lover~

Piss off week

2010-01-24T20:37:00.004+08:00

Pardon his rudeness(:
Though this is exactly what I wanna do to the next person that made me mad.

Hi! This week was 'let's pissed of me week'. Everywhere I go people are like trying to find fault with me. Be it in school, work or just random strangers outside. Seriously everyone is like getting on my freaking nerves! This also make me realize how short/hot tempered I can be. Haha. But I will cool down as fast as I started getting angry. OMG!

Okay first was with my cds gp members. I wish not to elaborate. Den it was with my system concept teacher. Den at work one by one pisses me of. Seriously one after another! Just now insede bus also this complete stranger finds fault with me! Argh! Mad! Okay shahrizan calm down(:

Well, next week will be better I supposed. Hopefully. Exams are coming. Final exams! I'm scared scared. Hehe. Okay thats about it, life's pretty good though there are certain stuffs that I shall not elaborate. Okie dokie.

Nighty nitez lovely ppl.

Oh before that, easy for you to say that both of us shall go our seperate ways. Crazy person! Fuck off seriously!!

~He's happy now~

Boringg

2010-01-16T23:05:00.005+08:00

Okay I'm officially BORED
(:

&& I learnt this this week during jap class.
Though I was like falling asleep,
because the teacher is such a bore!
&& very R****T
(:

"Watshi wa kare ga totemo suki desu!"

Nighty nitez lovely ppl;

~Folix a deux~

Randomness

2010-01-15T22:03:00.004+08:00

Its the WEEKENDS!
SO lets PARTAY! haha.
okayyyyyyyyyyy random!

So, I'm finnaly done with the comp prog flowchart.
Handed it up just nw.
Got a feeling that almost all of it is wrong.
Bt wth! Haha.
The quiz and assignment was a headache.
I have no idea hw to ans the qns.
It is DIFFICULT.
stooooopid teacher.

The song jojo-forever in my life is stuck to my head.
Yayness. Thanks to syarfa! Hahahaha.
Ohhhhhhhh n I'm sleeeeeepyyyyyy.
ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz.
k dah merepeks!(:

Oh n btw, inna khai?
What is the word?
Gendut izzit? hahaha.
or something else?
Ohhhhhh, and gendut means boncit!
hehehehe.

I'm working tmr.
Yayness! Nt~
Yeah thats it.
oh and why do i have to be stuck with another ppd ""?=(

Nighty nitez lovely pppl!!!!!(:

~My love, my love, my love~

School=Stress

2010-01-13T19:45:00.005+08:00

random pic(:
aww I missed all of them!

It had been a really really really crazy week. With projects deadline and all. Ahh, stress! I don't even know where to begin. Haha. So all 5 of us skipped lectures to finish our projects but to no avail. Its like the harder you think about finishing it, the faster the time passed.

Comp prog is a headache. I think me and sarah have been asking like more then a dozen people to guide us on starting the freaking flowchart, but everyone seems to be stuck at the second part of it. I tried many many many times to do it by myself but I still don't get it! Its really frustrating. Besides that, system concept is due tmr and our gp have nt started on it yet. Everything is like last minute with us. Tests are starting this fri and the whole of next week there'll be like a few papers. Haiyo!

Cds presentation is halfway done. I still need to typed out the script and all. Cds is like seriously a waste of time. I will never ever ever take language again!! Urgh. But aside from that, I managed to pass my presentation 1 and test 1 for my japanese, so congrats me! All I want right nw is to just pass my cds and not learnt anything more about it. Pls!

So, I met ms jumilia just nw. Hehe. Awww, I missed her!! And she told me that she have been 'terserempak-ing' ex damaians this past few weeks. Haha. First it was aisha, den qas on the bus. haha. Oh and just nw when I saw her, she was on her way to do rock-climbing as a recreation. Best or what! To realesed stress and all! Best! Jealous! Haha.

Anw, everythings good so far. By everything I meant *ehem ehem* Haha. So, hopefully things will be this way for awhile(:

Okay den nighty nitez lovely ppl!

~Happy-Go-Lucky~

BOO TO COMP PROG!

2010-01-08T22:58:00.004+08:00

I HATE THE

STUPID

FREAKING

IDIOTIC

MODULE

CALLED

COMPUTER PROGRAMMING!!!!

HATE IT

HATE IT

HATE IT!

HATE IT.

OKAY. NIGHTY NITEEZ LOVELY PPL!=))

Random<3

2010-01-07T23:19:00.005+08:00

I sometimes feel like a doll.
Something that can be 'bullied' around without complaining.
And I simply just hate that feeling.
"Make me walk, make me talk, do whatever you please"

&& just because 'she' comes off
strong doesn't mean 'she' didn't fall asleep crying &
eventhough 'she' acts like nothing is wrong, maybe
just maybe---> she's really good at lying.

Certain things are just meant to be secrets
that cannot be shared even with your closest friend.
How I wish that wasn't true.

Okay emo-ing. Haha. Nighty nitez lovely ppl=))

~Still waiting~

happy new year!

2010-01-06T20:33:00.002+08:00

Welcome 2010. I know, I'm like a few days late. Haha. Been busy with work and school. And since I'm now stressed with projects and all, why not update(:

I spent my countdown in the train. Haha. Best place ever!=)) I could have spent it with my secondary school friends but something came up. Sorry fat. But atleast I got home safely, had a good night sleep and had to go work the nxt day. Boo! Haha.

ANWS,
School have already started since last week. Projects deadline are near. Exams are near. Tests will be starting in 1 week time. I know I know, its like stressful. And its just like my first year. Tsk. Tried and do computer programming just now but..... failed to do so. I have NO idea how to even start. Cds are halfway done, econs atleast had a headstart. PSPS need to do editing and stuffs. And blah blah blah. Ooooh, and I saw sam just nw! Hehe. Finally meet him in tp!=))

FYI,
I've joined back carrefour btw. During that two weeks holidays. Since I have nothing to do. So why not earned money and do some shopping! Work is still the same, with a bit difference only, cos lots of new people. But I still had the same fun as I used to have, so thats great(:

BTW,
Life's good so far. I'm happy, everyone's happy. So happy happy. A good start of 201o I had. And hopefully it will continue on for the rest of the year. I'm turning 19 tis year. *dah tue* haha! Besides that, all's good except for certain things, bt whatever!!(: So, to all, have a great year ahead!

Nighty nitez lovely ppl=))

~pop princess~

Trouble

2010-01-01T22:42:00.001+08:00

Oh no.

I'm in deep trouble.

Please don't tell me anything,

I don't want to know!

Running away from this situation!

~penakut~

Happy- Happy

2009-12-31T00:53:00.002+08:00

Helo Helo.
A very very very very tiring day today is.
But some how I realised why I am so happy and energetic in school just now.
Its not because of the pretty flower clip I wore,
its because of something else. Hehe.

Seeing him, make all the pain I had in my leg, head, stomach everywhere uh go away.
Wee~
Soo, very the happy and the conversation lasted longer this time.
Rather then just hi bye,
we take the conversation to a next lvl.(:
But only one tiny problem!
His age=(

Oh and btw, random, I finally met a guy who has the same name as me with different spelling.
Haha. Weird!

Anws, really really sleepy to continue updating.
Nighty nitez lovely ppl!=))

~Lovely day~

Cds selection

2009-12-30T00:06:00.003+08:00

School has started.
Boo to that.
But I managed to survive the first two days of it.

I'm happy with my maths and econs results.
Didn't expect to get the marks that I got.
So congratulations me!=))

Projects still not finished yet.
There's like so many things to do in this last semester of year 1.
Ooh, and cds selection for year 2 has begun. Haha.

Me, inna, sarah and fauzul all choose basics of nutrition as our first choice.
Hope all of us get it and into the same class.
My second choice is human health and science or something.
Actt almost all of my choices are from applied science school. Haha.

Still thinking of new year's resolution.
Not yet decided.
So, once again HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Alrighty den, nighty nitez lovely ppl!=))

~Hot-fot-stuff-fuff~

2010

2009-12-27T22:47:00.003+08:00

~Everyone is a star~

"I'm addicted to you"
Ahhhhhh! Taufik Batisah! haha.
He is still the BEST!

So, school starts tmr. Yayness(:
I don't know why, but I am kinda excited for school.
Though the two weeks holidays have been great.
And projects still not finished yet! Haha.

Its going to be the end of 2009 and the beginning of 2010 soon.
How time flies.
So happy very advanced NEW YEAR!(:

Okay, randomly.
He says bye at me!
As usual, all I can do is freaking smile!
BOO to me!(:

Singapore Idol is amazing.
Though I only watch bit by bit.
But only concentrate on the last part. Haha.
And.... the winner is *drum roll please* Sezairi Sezali!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Votes nt wasted! ahaha
Oh yeah! yesshhhhh! WOoohoooo.
Good job! Haha.

Okay done! Nighty nitez lovely ppl!=))

~How I wish you were still mine~

rainbow

2009-12-24T00:07:00.004+08:00

Somehow, I find this fasinating-ly beautiful!

(:

you!

2009-12-21T00:10:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO GO MINGLE!!
(:

Okay random.

~Boredom~

*****

2009-12-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

To a certain someone!

Can you like please stop calling me *****!!

Its freaking irritating! So please stop!

Okay bye, and not interested,

thats the reason why I'm stalling.

So, please "sedar" tat!

Thank You(:

Happy-happy Place

2009-12-15T00:27:00.005+08:00

In my happy-happy place(:

I wish I could experience the beautiful sunset in real life. So, my weekends are pretty much booorrrringgg! I stayed at home like a good girl for two days reading. Gosh, eclipse and breaking dawn are like addictive. Its like impossible to put it down to stop for awhile. Ahhh! Jacob(:

I cant sleep, I cant sleep. And I know why! Hehe. Interesting monday it had been. Meet fat and wit at starbucks den fat 'study' awhile and then we ate at popeye's. Nt yummy already! Aisha join us while eating. So as per normal, gossssip and well just interesting talks(: After that aisha went off and me too.

Went pasir ris with sarah. Khairil's pit. There is only like me, sarah, su, amalina, and namirah and atiqah two other girl nt from tp. Too bad inna cant make it): *sob sob* Haha. And ohhh all the others are boys. Haha. So it was fun with much laughter and 'irritating ppl' and fooood ofcourse! Haha. Well, the highlight of just nw is the last part when most of us were going home. All I can say is thanks khairil!(:

Well, that is the reason I am in my happy-happy place! Hehehe. Oh and the incident, I tink it can last me for two weeks!!! okayyyy stooooop! Okie dokie den, nighty nitez lovely ppl!=))

~Green: New fav colour!~

Utterly powerless;

2009-12-11T00:57:00.005+08:00

I want these balloons!
School's out, party party partay!(:

Holidays for two weeks. Term tests over, so now just worried about the results. But that can wait after the holidays are finished. But, holidays are filled with projects. All together I have like 4 projects that need to be half done when school reopen. Tsk!

Anw, it seems like I have been cheering people up, by saying "look on the bright side of things". But I myself don't actually look on the bright side of things sometimes. And there's no one to cheer me up): Awwww, haha.

Again, found out dissapointing news that ruin my day and make me moody. Urgh! Flowers? *sob sob* Okayy, I'm like talking to myself now. Craz-zzyy! Situation is utterly dissapointing!

Alrighty den, night nitez lovely ppl!

~I'm utterly powerless~

Weekends

2009-12-07T23:32:00.003+08:00

Friday, 4 Dec

Evening spent with these two girls above! Eat at tong seng and movie. Watch new moon together. Jacob: HOT!(: Bus ride home and cam-whoring. Before that go 'funfair' at bedok resevoir. Burger ramly, yummmy. Fun fun day.

Saturday, 5 Dec

Lunch/dinner at Ms sahira's house. Me, jam, fat, adam, qas and fizi meet up at tamp and bused to compassvale. Aisha, khairil and elfi joined us after that. Play with teacher's cuteeeee baby boy(: He is adorable I tell you. Haha. Watched two movies and just slack at her house. Fun and many many laughter. Pics soon once I get it.

Sunday, 6 Dec

Wake up, study maths for 6 hrs den off to carrefour chalet at pasir ris downtown east. It was okay. Not as fun as it used to be. Guess the people are just different somehw. But I still have fun, eat like a pig. Haha. Home by 3. Aisha's sister fetch us. Pics soon too once I get it.

Today.

The weekends I'm supposed to be studying was spent going out and having fun. Tsk Tsk. Maths test was okay for section A. But section B, I completely skipped a 20 marks qns which I have no idea how to do! Blaja pn tk gune. Haiyo. Anw, after sch went simei, folo inna go service her fon den go eat at banquet! Oyster egg and carrot cake yummy! Omg fat! Gt trans fat! Hehe. During the time spent at eastpoint, things happened. I don't knw I shud be happy or nt. No butterflies at all. Hmmmmm, I wonder whyy. There's like something wrong with me!

I cant get the one that I want; But I always get the one that I don't want

Oh well, very lazy already want to type. Nighty nitez lovely ppl=))

~cherry cherry sherry boom booom~

Stars

2009-12-03T23:42:00.003+08:00

All I want is for someone to make me smile.

First of all a happy 18 birthday to witri(hoipolloi)! May you be happy happy always(:

Secondly, term tests are next week and I haven't start studying yet. Tsk! I hate myself for being lazy but I can't help it. Finally no more cds! Well, its because of term tests and hols that I dont now need to go for cds. But after that back to japanese every wed. Haiyo. Oh n btw, my presentation 2 is a group project and my group members are two malay guys. Just great!! I officially hate the teacher for grouping me with them! Oh and the worse thing is we have to do a 5 mins role play. I hate to act infront of people. Just great! Tsk tsk.

Oh and btw to two certain girls, my life isn't that interesting you knw! Haha. In fact, I envy your life. Tsk. Jealousssss!(:

~I missed the late night smses~

Sleeep!

2009-12-01T01:17:00.003+08:00

And I'm bored!
Presenting the amazing ppl above!
=))

They are the ones that made school FUN!
Though there are only 5 of us, it still is 'kecoh!'

Once again, I cant go to sleep!
I'm an owl and dark circles are more visible then ever.
Okay maybe, I'm panda! ahah.
Okay mepek. BYE!

Nighty nitez lovely ppl(:

~Boredom~

(:

2009-11-30T00:53:00.003+08:00

I have a sudden craving for these types of chocolates. Haha.
Oh anw, the purpose of me blogging is just to tell you that tomorrow school!
YAY! Well not exactly tmr but a few more hours only.
Can't wait!(:
Okie dokie den, nighty nitez lovely ppl!

~Would you like you, if you met you?~

Roller Coaster

2009-11-28T20:08:00.003+08:00

It had been a crazy, hectic, roller coaster week. Many many many things happened. I know stuffs that I don't want to know about. Well, I blame myself for this because of my curiosity, I can't help but ask lots of questions and in the end hating the answer that I got. And stressed were added to the many many worries that I already have. Thank you very much for that.

But I am much better now. Going back to my happy-happy self back! Haha. Oh well, its not good to dwell on the past. We must move on with our lives eventhough the past keeps following you wherever you go. The easiest solution for that is just to ignore it.

School was as usual. I think I'm like going to fail my system concept module. Really die! This module do not have an exam or term test so more dead! Maths sux! Seriously its like the level of difficulty shoots up and up and doesn't wants to stop. And I have to study probability again. Adding stress again! Whoever said poly is easy is insane, seriously. Or is it me who's stressing myself out? HAHA!

With all the things that has been happening, I think school has been a great help by distracting me with things that has been happening. With that, I love school!=))

Oh and one more thing, I found out that he still like her. I am sitting here, wondering why he still like her. And the sad thing is, I think, she still likes him too. Aww, I hate this feeling of thinking thats its my fault these things happened.

Okie dokie den. Have a great weekend ppl(:

~Watashi wa ****-san ga totemo suki desu~

Shefirsha

2009-11-21T13:20:00.003+08:00

Had lots of fun with these two girls yesterday as usual. Me and fir meet up first and had lunch at burger king. Den both of us bused to republic poly to see aisha. We went and explore rp awhile. It was fun. Walk around like we're lost. Haha. Den bused to airport and had dinner at I dunno what this one shop is call. Haha. Den went starbucks for caramel mochiato. Veryy nice! Last is supper at ya kun kaya toast. And was sent home by aisha's sister. Fun FUn FUN!

So school, all tests are over. Waiting for results. Half of the projects are done. Good news! Cds presentation is over! Like finally. Haha. Now just waiting for term test to come follow by a two week holidays den final exam. How time passed by so fast when you're enjoying it.(:

And one last thing, she said i'm fat wen our weight is the same! WTH!!

~Missing people~

Carrefour

2009-11-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

17 November 2008.

The day it all started.

This day, today marks the first time me and aisha met this lovely people! So, happy 1 year! Haha. Wow, its been a year already. How time flies. Aww, I missed carrefour! Well, not the place but the people working there. Haha. Above is the best bunch of workmates so far. The funniest, sweetest most amazing people. I feel so lucky having them as friends.(: The time spent working or going out was the best and memorable moments. Sooo many memories. Haha. See you guys soon okay!

~Friends worth remembering~

Partayy!

2009-11-15T15:47:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY WAS FUN.

REACHED THERE AT 11.

WENT HOME AT 6!

ONE WORD: FUN!

=))

Problems

2009-11-10T17:46:00.002+08:00

It happened again.
And I'm wondering, how can a nearly
complete stranger who is a friend but I
don't talk to them often, can tell
me about their problems easily,
and not just any problems.
They are like telling me their family problems.
Haiyo. So scaryy. A bit uhh.
And the ones that I've known for months
or years can't even tell me their problem.
I find it really weird and scary.
Hahaha. =))

BORING!!!

2009-11-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

Randomly, I kinda missed the p.e lessons in school. Haha. Though I will dread the days when the whole class have to run 2.4 and do all the five stations for nafa test. But the games part are usually fun and I'm missing it. And besides pe is the only exercise I will be doing. Since there's no pe lessons nw, I have to force myself to exercise! Haha.(;

So, tmr school start at 11. First lesson comp programming. Hate the subject and the teacher. But love the way I'm sitting in the class. Love the seating arrangement. Haha. Okay, moving on.

I'm bored!! Oooh and I finished my cds projects, maths and pecon assignments. Studied my system concept, practiced doing mind-maps, or should I say, practicing to be creative. Haha. Finish reading one whole fiction book, learn new japanese words and sentences, and blah blah blah. Thats how many things you can do just by staying at home for the weekends. No Life!

Okayy, must sleeep!! Nighty nitez lovely ppl! Sweetest dreams like someone used to say to me(:

~You don't even know me!~

A proper post

2009-11-05T23:19:00.003+08:00

For once, I want to try and do a proper post. But I always have no idea what I should talk about. And since I got nothing to do now, why not right? Its going to be a bit long and dull though.

School have been okay so far. Though I didn't really pay attention in lectures, I'm still able to catch up during tutorials. Right now the only modules I don't like is maths because I can't do the questions in the textbook. Its like primary school all over again where I will always get mad at myself for not being able to understand and do the maths questions. I hate myself for not being able to solve and get the answers right. Stress!!

Besides that, projects are adding up and almost all the projects are due in week 5 and 6. So, next week is going to be a busy week for everyone in my class, and maybe course. Computer programming is getting more and more difficult. My japanese classes is giving me a headache with project proposal and presentation with new alien words cramming in my brain. Haiz. Okay enough about school!

The next thing I'm pissed of is, everytime you meet someone, you have never seen for a long time, the question that they will ask me is, 'so, you have a boyfriend already?'. Irritating you know if people keep asking you that question! And this past few weeks all my friends around me will talk about boys and the guys will talk about girls. So, not necessary! Though I'm happy for you guys, really.

I'm actually happy that people turn to me for advice. Though sometimes I'm not helpful at all but I'm a good listener, I think. Haha. So feel free to come to me about anything(:

I hate the feeling of being left out. I understand that it is my fault if I don't socialize with people and in the process I get left out but I'm just not comfortable around people I don't know. So please include me in your conversations so I won't feel like some stupid girl standing there like a stranger.

Btw, in msn, why do people like always talk to me and just suddenly offline without even saying you got to go or bye or something. Its rude you know to just appear offline like that. Rude and irrtaitng. If I'm boring, in the first place why do people even bother to talk to me right. And if I talk to you people first, atleast have the initiative to excuse yourself politely and not just ignore someone. Same goes for smses too!

The last thing is, to that certain someone I'm sorry.

Wow. It feels kind of good to get things of you. I feel so light! Haha. Okie dokie, nighty nitez lovely people!

~Anywhere but here~

2009-11-02T01:17:00.001+08:00

How to be a friendly loud type of person,
when I'm naturally a quiet friendly type of person.
=(

Syam's bday

2009-11-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

Friday.

Went out with fellow carrefourians,
to celebrate syam's bday.
First meet at bugis to eat lunch at tong seng.
Den went to grand link for karaoke.
After that follow the girls go extend their hair. haha.
Den bused to bugis back for shisha.
Den supper and cake at some glam cafe or sumthing.
Overall, I had fun, the ppl are all funny and fun so yeah.
=))

Saturday.

Raining plus thunder = Staying at home.
I was sick also haha.
So, home sweet home.

Sunday.

Went studying with jaid, ayie and khairil.
After that join aisha to study at bugis.
Eat subway and bused home.
Studying is Fun! haha
=))

Nighty nitez lovely ppl!=))

~Everyone ard me is happy~

=)))

2009-10-31T01:17:00.002+08:00

This new complete stranger
that I just make friends with
reminds me so much of this
used-to-be friend of mine.
So not good lahh!!
DAMN IT!

Geylang

2009-10-27T22:20:00.002+08:00

How I wish I could turn back time.

To a few months back, during fasting time.

That one day which I dunno when.

The day that I was at geylang,

and he saw me and I was blind,

and didn't saw him! Gosh!

That day when he accidentally bumps

my hand and was standing beside me,

hoping I will turn but I didn't.

Sounds funny ehh? Haha.

Bt its true. Omg, I'm so selenge. haha!!

Seeing him just nw, he wouldnt even look at me.

Sad story. Hahaha. Haiyo!

=))

Okayy I don't feel like going school tmr cos

of stupid cds! A few more mnths I have to lived with it!

=(

Lunch time was super duper fun just nw.

Got sharing is caring session just nw.

Met new ppl and yay! new frens. hehe

Okie dokie.

I'm sleepy! Bubye!

Nighty nitez!

~I like "green"~